Monday, July 2
I have real anger issues at the moment and although it sounds stupid I don't really know why. I know people say well you have a right to be angry, maybe but for how long. How long should you be angry at life for? Should I have counselling? Ive never really found talking non stop about life helps, it just reminds me of what I feel should be, and what the reality is. Anyway, I don't have it most of the time, in fact I'm a pretty calm sort of person usually and perhaps that's the problem. Just recently my pointy finger has been out pointing hard and jabbing the air, I feel cross, in fact I'm bloody seething. I want to bang the table hard with my fist and shout to the words Listen. To. Me. but what am I saying, anything at all? I dont think I have anything of value to add anywhere much right now, and having just said that Ive hit the nail firmly on the head. Its all about value, I dont have any and I dont feel I can get it back any time soon.